Down here, it's our time. It's our time down here.

I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now

Ever since I was little, I figured I would marry young. In my head, whenever I pictured being a bride, I was no older than 21. Of course, I also pictured myself having that story book high school sweetheart. Ha.

There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

I'm 19 years old. That means that I have two, count them two, years left before my childhood visions are officially dashed from blissful dreams into so much wishful thinking. And I have seen no sign of Prince Charming approaching valiantly on his steed.

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

Sometimes it feels that I will never experience true love from another person. That no guy will ever look into my eyes and hold me close. That I'll never have a song written for me. That my hand will always be empty, and my bed never shared.

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

And I know this isn't true. I know God has someone awesome for me. But when the wind is blowing and my jacket can't keep me warm, all I want is a pair of strong arms to hug the chill away. And I don't know who is going to do that for me.

I'm looking for a place
Searching for a face
Is anybody here I know

And I always wonder if I've already met the man I'm going to marry and just don't know it. And then that makes me look at every guy I've ever known, and the maybes flow like rivers to a waterfall.

'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone
Oh why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind

Now these thoughts don't necessarily bum me out all that much, but more make me think, what else did I dream as a child that can never come to fruition? What did I blindly cling to for so long, as reality swept along on its merry way, not taking my dreams into consideration?

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

Papa God, I'm just really praising You tonight that You have chosen an awesome man for me. I know that he will love You and serve You with all of his heart, and that he's going to be all that I've dreamed of. And maybe I won't be married as young as I always pictured, but Lord, I know that I will realize who You have for me only in the fullness of time, in the moment You have hand picked for us. You've assured me on so many occasions, in many different ways, that my man of God is on his way, and that it will totally blow my mind how amazingly suited for me he is. I thank You for bringing me back to those assurances when I am longing for physical affection, and for helping me see that, when I finally do get to be affectionate, it will mean that much more because I haven't ever done any of that. Lord, I know my life is in Your hands, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Your blessings have been so richly lavished, and I praise You for Your mighty works. I know who You are, and I'm definitely with You, as You've always been there for me. I love You, Daddy. In Jesus Name, Amen.

lyrics taken from "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne

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the night is nearly over † the day is almost here

Ya know, I feel a little bit