I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough
~Switchfoot

*sigh* There's always a song that captures a place in time, and my mood at that moment. I just got done with my Wednesday night ritual, which is watching Gilmore Girls at midnight on Fox because we don't get the WB. And it was the episode where they took a road trip to Harvard, and something hit me strangely. Like I'm going to end up not going to college and being kind of wistful later on. But I just don't really know if that's what God has for me. And if I don't go, I don't think I would wish that I had, I would just look at it like, what would it have been like, you know what I mean? And the more I look at those lyrics up there, the more I think God is trying to tell me something, but I'm not hearing it over the clattering of keys. I feel prayer time coming on.

the night is nearly over † the day is almost here